RING AROUND THE WORD.

so im starting to realize friends have not been in my best interest this year. its like, you dont want to let people in, and once you do, you dont want to let them go. and when they fcuk up its like, why would you do that to me? i gave you my feelings, i did everything for you, and you still screwed me over. its like, you wish they we're a better person. im currently in a landslide. i have so much going on in my life, but my main concern keeps popping up. FRIENDS. i dont know why, and i wish it didnt. you become so attatched to people sometimes it becomes a routine. they become obligations. then in the end youre the one torn and alone. then im like, i shouldve known better. i should have never took a chance, took a chance on anything. and youre back to square one trying to pick up the pieces to your puzzle. like, how could you hate someone so much that you literally make wish they were dead? now that time has past, i still grieve, but im learning theres more to life. i dont want to be friends with someone i'll never trust again.