there isnt a subject im more fond than talking about rather than "love". but here is something ive been previously and currently dealing with my entire life:
LETTING GO.
i think its one of the single most important things one can do in life to be happy. i also think its one of the most challenging things in life to actually accomplish.
i do find that ive become better at letting go of actions versus thoughts. but im almost positive that counts. im not sure one is truly free of negative or agonizing thoughts until you can let go of it.
for example, there are things that happen daily on a smaller scale that drive me crazy, and make me want to put up a fight, or express my opinion.
i happen to catch myself angry at the most random things another person can say or do. i feel the urge to speak up and express my feelings, but i dont. it irritates me. and thats my fault. because its not about me, its about them.
my goal is to try and let random things in life roll off my back before i even have a chance to think about it.
in truth we add our own "stuff" to everything we come in contact with in life. and all that unresolved "stuff" comes bubbling to the surface when we come into contact even with things like silly little comments.
and im sure those thoughts came up because somewhere along the way in life i felt small, or unloved, or unaccepted.
so now i take these feelings as clues. what negative thoughts keep reoccurring? what triggers them? and more importantly, how can i resolve those feelings so that when i see triggers in the future, they mean nothing to me.
this is a part of opening up and learning to speak feely especially with a significant other. something i am unfortunately incappable of doing. still anticipated..
xoxo hopeless.
