hey. allow me to reintroduce myself.
hi. . . .
guess that wasnt needed.
but let me tell you my story for tonight. for the past 3 weeks ive been stranded in a new place, secretly hidden in another body. my vivid eyesight overtook these scary notions from my recent X agenda and vanished them. i was blind by hurt, but masked this with the inevitable smile and with this new transformation, i evolved into a different kind of me. lets call this person jules. so, jules didnt care. she partied hard and became the socialite of every event thus far. she didnt put up with feelings, or attended to any emotions. life seemed to be pretty how do you say, peachy until. . .a clash between what was and what is. (clouds turn gray, moment of silence erupts).
june 14th - jules is g o n e .
_ letters to yous:
oh lovely competitor, i promised myself i wouldnt be that person anymore. i wouldnt caress your fickle sometimes daring personality. i wasnt going to be ... me.
and to you mr. bbb, i am horridly punishing myself for letting you through, into my hollow hallway of emotions.
THE RETURN OF THE PESSIMIST
cheers to the present and for what its worth. i am now officially the director of a sequel i cannot bare to finish.
i am in love, i am in like. i am scared. i dont know where my deepest sorrow will take me, but my mind sees light. let's be selfishly honest here: i dont know what i want. lies. i do.
you, attention whore.
i am shackled into a game i didnt want to play. i am the golden planchette and my dice have been given to me. gambling on lust and betting on love is beyond my control. i am freakishly astonished by my strategy now.
im telling myself go ahead, pick your prize, while i hear these whispers demanding a withdrawal.
i played the part of a terrible actress well. i had experiences these past hundred hours i wouldve never thought i could handle. i am no longer that character, jules was just an added addition to the spice in the concoction. back to the humble asswhole it is. i understand the end is nigh ' but my virtue is far from its acceptance.
