eyes.
caught up. fights. friends. crush. blush.
hugs. time. tears. rush. you. were. there.
a kiss. a spell. im stuck. what have you done. help me?
or not.
you were it. i'll admit, i took advantage. not for a benefit, but for a feeling. a feeling i didnt find anywhere else. you make me feel beautiful. like im made of all the stars in the sky. you havent gave up on me and i still ask myself why.
so lets pretend you are here, right now. oh how im sorry for mistreating you. im sorry for all the ignorant things ive done. i swear i never meant for it to be this way. im sorry for being a total bitch at times and ignoring your feelings.
you are one of the brightest lights in my dim life. you dont have to believe me, i understand. whenever i felt sad or lonely it was you i longed for. im sorry. we were bestfriends. i shared with you my soul, my secrets. thanks for not telling them. then distanced tugged at us like a rope war. i lost.
hey, its you. you came back. you were just hiding. i was happy. but you were too and it wasnt because of me. you have her. i was c-r-u-shed. still am. oh how i wish sorry had a big giant way of expressing its emotion in a much meaningful matter.
right now i dont feel as good. i mean, feel good knowing that you care about me. but i dont think i have a chance. i feel good knowing you see me for what i am, not what they say i am. but i dont think that isnt worthy of you anymore.
i have constantly repeated myself to you. gently peeling each feeling off of my heart, letting them flow into words that whisper softly into your sweet body, surrounding each organ and tissue. knocking on the door that leads them to your heart. i want you to know that i like you so much. i want it to be us. i want you to know that each time i go to bed a picture of your face is stuck in my mind. i want you to know that when im at work teaching my class the difference between tendus and pleas, youre in my mind all the time. i want you to know that right now – you are the reason im staying up til 4 in the morning.
i love the bubbly feeling you give me. i love the way you look a me because you say my face expressions are nuts. i love how you kissed me in front of your friends. i love how you smile at me when i say something ridiculously stupid. i love the way you held me when we fell asleep.
youre beautiful boy. youre so beautiful that a thousand of people deserve to hear about you. youre so good, youre so bad, that everybody wants to be on your lips.
i think im falling for you.. xoxo - your bellybutton girl.
