and so here i am, finding myself in battle with my mind and heart. its 2 am, and i cant sleep. i am numb. i am not the same person i was a few weeks ago. i have been pushed so far off the edge and theres no turning back. these butterflies have eaten my alive and i am a stranger to my own soul. i dont know why im here, maybe its because i care for you. maybe it has a lot to do with the bliss; bliss you bring to me. but now theres this new erruption, and trust me, this was definitely an overnight kind of thing. i didnt think it would, could happen to me. the hopeless romantic writer. the girl who once lived based on the floatation of aphrodite, shes gone. im scared. i dont know why this is happening.
wishful thinking.
now i am being confronted with this scroll. a vivid alliance which is tortoring me deep inside. the countless cells in my brain have been tossing and turning for days on in. i just need a breather. light a ciggaretter; drink some water. ugh, no help. i am a walking complication.
let's see where this will take me.
- xoxo .....
