its officially been 6 days.
in all honesty i feel like a champion. im happy to say i havent shed a single tear for you my friend. sometimes i hate myself for it. "when a guy breaks a girls heart shes suppose to cry, unless she doesnt care."
well, i do care. a bit too much perhaps.
i've been wrapped up in this cycle, trying to find ways to build your self esteem to a higher level above every other possible.
what about me?
i feel like the kid who missed the bus.
i lost the game, and i dont even have a certificate to show for playing.
you dug deep. all you did was take and i have nothing left, so what now?
you dont want to be with me. its okay, i've noticed. i've just put up this stupid front because everyone said... see, thats it. "everyone said" fcuk everyone. they dont know anything about our relationship. only we do. and what i know is i've never trusted you, but man oh man have i tried. i feel like i haven't got any credit for my patience except for the cheapest ily. yeah, written just like that too!
you're texting me, confusing me, hurting me. cant you see im aimless? i dont want to hear what you have to say anymore. you were my one realest dream, a fairy tale that almost came true, guarded by hideous lies and guilt that bit through my tender tissue surrounding my heart.
do whatever you believe in.
i dont believe in believing.. anymore.
you have taught me to be so strong, and i hope you're proud of me. i've been tougher than a rock.
guarding my emotions, keeping them bottled up because you dont care about what i have to say. all you hear is YOU YOU YOU, and theres no me.
i hope you figure out what it is you really want in this deceiving world. whatever it is, may it bring you beautiful blessings beyond this universe.
and as for us ..
..... to be continued.
