blaaaaahhh
gggaaaahhh
UURRRRGGGGHHH !
i never wanted to yell so loud before. maybe that will help all this anger to just slip away into the air..
we continued on for almost three years. recently our relationship has been at its highest peak. violently we hurt each other until there was nothing left to hurt. you said you dont want to be with somebody else, yet you arent fighting for me. this is what terrifies me most. this is insane, falling out of (a type) of love, and we fought in circles. you unintentionally hurt me more then any other has, and in return i know i intentionally made you suffer for breaking my heart. our two different relationships were so intertwined, it greatly suffered and right now i dont know whats going to happen.
"no auto tune, but you can feel the pain. it all comes spilling out like i hit a vein." - DRIZZY
YOURE SCARED.
i know you are.
i know youve been pushed to grow up so early that now youre stuck and you dont know what to do with yourself. you dont know who you are, and i understand. you been burtally trashed talked so much, that its easier for you to let people think they know who you are rather than showing them the real you. i know who you really want to be. youre caring and sweet, funny and charming, with a kick of spice followed by a hint of sensitivity. i can see the pain in your eyes, your pleading for help. you want to do the right thing, but this role you play is too demanding-its over powering your heart. dont worry, i know this.
ive always been here with open arms. ready to give you the biggest hug the moment you spill your soul to me. never have i judged you. i dont care about your past, i dont care about what you did. that doesnt mean anything to me right now. i only want you. the real you. the person you really want to be..
we’ve been through a lot. like any relationship, we had our ups and downs. i was there for you through thick and thin, no matter what the issue. i just want to remind you, whenever you go through something, i'll suffer right there with you-your pain is my pain, i want it to go both ways.
youre my go-to.
if somebody in my family dies, or i have a bad dream, or i need to go to the hospital, or some guy is offensive towards me-youre the one im going to call. i hope its mutual. something tells me this is not the end of us. the ride isnt finished. im stubborn and argumentative, while youre difficult and egotistical-not a good combination. we have to fix so much within ourselves before we can start on our relationship, i am well aware of that. but.. I CANT DO THIS LIFE THING WITHOUT YOU. call me crazy, but i truly believe your him. from the moment i layed eyes on you, it was like a flash of lightening struck and hit every vein in my entire body, like a tazer.
i want to have fun with you. laugh with you. be able to watch a girlie tv show and cry around you. i want your hugs, your kisses your constructive ass critism, because its as constructive as it gets. i want whatever you have to say. i want your smile, i want your tears. i want you to trust me, with your heart. i want the purity of love and lust. a friendship on fire. i want it all. and only with you. just you.this isnt a love letter, but i am sincerely going to sign this one off. . .
-- your wishful and hopefull future, xoxo eightthreeone.
